What the Heck?

It's Sunday and I have my usual sadness as the weekend turns into the week.  I have always struggled on Sunday nights, I get sad for some reason.

The bff and I had a nice evening and sleep over.  I feel like a princess when I sleep over at her house, she cooks my favorite foods and mixes my drinks.  Who could ask for anything more?  We have walked every work day for the past two weeks.  I think we are both enjoying the break in the day.  I'm pretty proud of us. 

I haven't been doing so well with my eating, but tomorrow is another day to start again.  I'm going to continue to try.

The big head was gone most of the week, so the stress level was minimal at the office.  Now that I have my sights set on something bigger than what I do now, I have a sense of peace to just do my job and move towards a better future for me and the hubby.

My son in law is out of town for the week, sadly his mother is succumbing to the cancer that has been part of her life for the past 10 years.  She is a wonderful soul who deserves to go in peace.  My own child was struggling with what one does when they know that a loved one is at the end of their time on earth, how do we let go?  How would you spend your final 24 hours with your parent, if you knew it was the end?  No easy answer, but certainly a thought worth spending some time with. 

My mother has always been very important to me.  She has a tremendous faith in a higher power and in a better place.  I believe I would spend the final 24 hours studying her face and her hands and her scent.  Knowing that this memory will have to last the balance of my life.  It's hard to think about, but I hope I get that chance rather than have her taken suddenly, without warning. 

The sadness just won't go away today, so for now, I will close and hoope for peace and comfort for tomorrow.