Try, try, again...

The day did not go as planned.  First, the electricity was off for a time last night.  My "Sweetie" and I both overslept.  I remembered to take the positive affirmations to work with me, forgot to look at one.

I was running too late to think of anything else to take to work, no breakfast & no lunch.  I had a donut, a handful of almonds, handful of cashews, 3 pieces of chocolate peanut butter candy, more mixed nuts (I believe you get the idea).  There were no good decisions made today (or yesterday for that matter).  Stayed late at work and met "the girls" for dinner.  Thank goodness for the girls.

I finished reading "The No Complaining Rule" yesterday.  I really thought the book was interesting.  There were so many good suggestions for improving the work place.   When I realized that my boss read the book and was trying to put some of the principals into practice that I became concerned.  One of the principals that the author suggests is that all criticism be heard and utilized as a means to improve the "organization".  I think my boss believes that the rule only applies to the subordinates.  She has spent the past two weeks criticizing me and the rest of the staff and then telling us each thing we have done wrong since the beginning of our employment.  I think she suggested I read the book so that I can take her criticism and tell her how I might improve my performance.  I didn't get that from the book, but I think she did and it's a little bit scary!  There should be a Warning Label on some of these self help books!  I may start a hotline!

So, no progress in any areas today, but no worse!  I did have fun at dinner and Craft Night.  Tomorrow is another day and I will try it all over again!  I'll let you know how things go. 

Merry Christmas, Baby!

What a great holiday!  My time was spent with friends and my family.  I spent Christmas day with my grandchildren and then went to the movies with friends.  Just a super holiday, no stress and lots of things to be thankful for.  Funny, I didn't do any baking or a lot of planning for the holiday.  I only did the things that I enjoyed.  I believe that will become my holiday standard.  I will only do those things that I enjoy. 

Back to work today and not finding any joy in the work place.  I am taking some joy to work with me and I will be coming home for lunch.  I have always stayed at the office for the lunch hour, but I think my personal needs would be better served by a break in the middle of the day and the dogs will like it!

Trying one thing at a time, one day at a time :)

So, tomorrow, take along something from home that brings me joy and peace.  Come home for lunch.  Be grateful for my job, co workers and friends. 

Twas the night before, the night before Christmas

and all through the house, not a creature was stirring, not even a Shih Tzu.

I resisted the urge to go out and shop today.  It wasn't easy.  I am determined to stick to my plan.  No credit cards used!  I do want to buy a Keurig Coffee maker, but I don't need one.  Tomorrow I am going to the supermarket and getting only what I need. 

Still struggling with eating all the wrong things and drinking more than I should, but nature fixed me today.  Nasty heartburn that will not go away.  I thought about trying ice cream, but have decided on the smoothie.  I need to read some of the 72 Zen Habits, so I'm off, making the smothie and reading. 

I proud of myself today.  I maintained my determination and I feel good!  Merry Christmas to me!

Back to Work

I made it to work!  Thank heavens!  A little too much Girl's party last night.  Lesson learned:  no blogging after drinking!  I make no sense.  Anyway, a wonderful night with friends and a good time to contemplate all of the things I want to make better about my own life in the upcoming year.

Today I will try to maintain a peaceful, positive attitude, no matter what the world brings me.  I'll let you know how that works out.

Goal for 2010

I want to be working in a job that I feel good about.  I want to be happy with the work I do, reduce conflict and be satisfied.

Every Day, I'm amazed

Really, another day to think about how one gets to a place that seems so foreign.  I love my life, but I often think, what purpose does this serve?  Anyway, I have had a great night with friends, so much to be said for the company of other women! But, really, why?  Why is there always so much conflict? Why do so many believe that they have the right to judge others?  I am having a hard time today.  I oppose the death penalty and  a local murder was on the front page today.   I feel strongly, the death penalty is wrong, public execution, really!  How primitive!  


This is not part of the good karma I am hoping to put out over the year.  I love the idea of peace, I think of John Lennon, who could ever shoot John Lennon, really!  Peace, man!  Peace.  So many people would be saved, so much suffering averted. PEACE.......

Grateful for the day....b

Migraine Headaches ruining my Life!

Around 12:30 yesterday I was struck with a terrible migraine headache.  I missed the Chirstmas party that I was eager to attend and missed the rest of the day.  At 4pm today it's finally gone to the point that I can function.  I hate migraines and wish I knew why I get them!

So, I didn't drink or overeat.  Those are both good things!  I did sleep for about 24 hours, so there is no reason for me to be tired.  I feel like crap because it's the holidays and I have a lot to do at work and there was no way I should have missed work today.  Tomorrow is another day and I will try to make the best of it.

Nothing else here.  I will do a little reading, try to meditate a bit and off to bed.  More tomorrow.

Well, here's another day...

This morning I read an article in Oprah's Magazine. Paige Williams has my real job! First of all she's putting herself out there as an average person (really?) and she's changing her life! SHE HAS OPRAH! (and Dr. Oz!). I wish her well. I have me, myself and no one else. I'm the average American Woman. I live paycheck to paycheck, I have a demanding job, a child, grandchildren, aging parents, an elderly grandparent and a lot of things to do daily! There won't be any fancy gym membership story on this blog, there won't be any fancy exams or any special foods. I'll be trying to make this change with the resources available to me. I am not going into any debt, I'm not buying anything special!

One of my promises to myself for this year is no more buying magazines! They're a waste of paper and not environmentally friendly, so I have no idea how I'm going to keep tabs on Paige, but my story isn't going to be nearly as glamorous.

I hope someone else follows me on this or at least sends me links to sites that have great suggestions. I'm giving it my all this year and If I have to read Oprah while I'm standing at the store, so be it!

One of the first places that I found that has really inspired me is zenhabits.net I'll put up a link to the site, it really is great.

Now I have to get ready for another party. More later. My goal: No alcohol, no overeating while at the party. I'll let you know how I do!

Well, it's been a great day. My grandson and I are sitting in the "craft lair" talking and playing a game. Now he's writing his ABC's and I'm watching Christmas Vacation. Life is good.

We had a nice time at my Dad's today with my brother, sister and their children. Spending more time with my family is something that I would like to do. I have determined that I need to put one day a month on the calendar for dinner with my siblings. I hope we can do it. Spending time with them keeps me grounded and positive.

I don't want to put a lot of pressure on myself, but I am committed to making my life more rewarding. That's my goal and I' going to try hard to find the answers to a rewarding and gratifying life.

Stay tuned, tomorrows another day.

As usual, I follow through with nothing! I hope this year is different. I am going to try to change my life, become more focused, centered and find real meaning and purpose. I'm starting to prepare and I hope that for once in my life I find a little self discipline and finish something!